Thursday, 4 March 2010

I will cheer up, i will

I'm not normally all maudlin and miserable am i?

Got home yesterday to a cheque from my Auntie, she doesn't trust the internet and wont sponsor me online the silly moo. Anyway, she sent a wee note saying, it's 20 years since your Mum died today (Tuesday2nd) The same day i met Roger and went home to bed miserable. It's weird but every year i forget the day she died,i always focus on the 6th, cause that was when she was buried. This was day my life went into freefall, when it all became a bit too real, she wasn't coming back. So maybe the Tuesday misery was buried deep inside and it wasn't *just* Roger, although he is a cunt, that much is confirmed.

So i hope i don't dwell on it on Saturday, it's such a huge day for me, i reckon there will be tears at some point, whether it'll be pure exhaustion, misery, pain, happiness, jubilance, i have no idea. Maybe it will be a melting pot of emotions.

I put a thread on Feych calling out to Fetchies asking for support enroute, and i'm quite franky overwhelmed by everyone, Saturday is going to be great. It is.

one sleep.

3 comments:

  1. Oi cheer up little lady, you've got a fun run on Saturday with friends which will rock!! X

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  2. Don't you know it's Santa's world and we just get to occasionally run in it !

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  3. You do make me laugh with your polite description of Roger.

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